i miss my long hair

am trying hard to save money so that i can straighten my hair (rebonding). now, my hair is getting curly since the last cut on last friday.. never step my foot into the suck hair saloon again..! would never forget his face reaction when i ask question and the answer u gave is fxxking lame.. great, my hair is getting worst become of your hair cut.. damn you..! is like a mushroom head, can you ever image a mushroom is on your head..?? lus, i need to tied my hair... i'm fxxking hate my hair... are you happy now?? this is how i feel everything i see my hair :

childish & ugly

reports

FUCK...!! am now rushing for the 3 months report for the nanny. come on brain, is time to come out with inspiration and i need some PERSUASIVE lies. *think think think* how much i wish i can write those negative feedback *sigh*

life's totally different when you can't tell the truth ..!!

memory with them

a full stop..

great, finally i finished my 3 months intern
gonna miss my colleagues
seriously, am jealous with my mates
they're happy with those experiences they gain and skill they learned
but not for me..
i'm so frustrated and mad
wondering am i not good enough..??
ain't blaming who for this situation
everything is just about FATE
i have to face the fucking nanny
you'll never expect what she'll do next
no matter right or wrong
i have to go thru all those nonsense and nagging
she's despicable enough..
blaming us when she fails to get the tasks done
she refuse to judge our intern's result before everything done
still, we've meeting and OT during the last day
and she wants a report
she wants to know what we had learned and our thoughts in these 3 months
i 've praise you up like an angle in order to get my result..??
WHY.. ??
*sob sob*

why FATE make all these happen??
is this a bless for me??

dear FATE :
would you bless me for my future undertakings??
will you bless me for getting a better job after my graduation??
*begging*